The Internet Ramblings of Nick O'Hare

I feel like I am about to be overwhelmed. And this weekend isn't going to help.

I would like to publicly recognize that fact that I'm a failure to blogging. I apologize to anyone who gets disappointed checking this thing. Maybe one day I'll get better (and by better, I mean more consistent).

Right, so I've been home for about 4 or 5 days now for summer break, and all I know is it probably gonna be amazing. Im partially afraid that I'm hyping it up too much in my mind and I'm going to disappointed, but I don't think thats gonna be the case. I hope that everything goes as well as I think its going to. Also, I have no idea why I said any of that stuff, because there wasn't really anything of worth in there.

And i got to see Jesse Scanlon last night which was good. I love him.


PLUS, Baskin Robbin's 31 Cent Scoop Night is a gift from God.

Ok, so I haven't posted in a while so let's see what's going on...

School is almost over, which is awesome because, well, school is over, but at the same time I think I'm going to miss it for my four month summer. Things are a lot different when I go home. Not necessarily for better or worse, just different. Plus apparently a lot of my friends are staying up here for summer classes, which I didn't know. Hmm, what else is new... oh, I dropped a little money on my car (new spoiler, new badges), so that's good. I know no one cares about that, but I do, so there. Also, slight venting... I'm not thrilled at all about the new group of "kids" who are moving to Orlando next year (I call them kids not because they actually are, but only because they act like children). I have a feeling it's going to bring a lot of drama, and I'm never down for drama. Actually, I hate it... more than anything.

Also, my Grandpa just past away yesterday. It's kinda sad, but on the same token, we were never really close, so its ok I guess. I mean, I've always accepted death as a part of life, so its never really surprising to me, but its still pretty sad. He was pretty BA too. Like a Ranger in WWII, paratrooping into Normandy the night before D-Day, fought in the Battle of the Bulge type of BA. Yeah, so if whoever reads this could pray for my family, that'd be much appreciated.

Hopefully updates will start coming more regularly. I've been having a bit of a mental dry spell...

Yeah, I was there today. One of the coolest things ever...

Right, so I know promised a new blog tonight, but... I'm dang tired, and have to wake up a butt-thirty in the morning tomorrow, so I'm going to bed now.

yeah, ive been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. maybe ill get around to compiling it all.


sorry for no postings lately.

Ok, Semi-Pro sucked. I expected it to be way funnier than it was, and it was superfluously crude. Thumbs down.

On the other hand, it was quite a good night regardless.

So yesterday I had my wisdom teeth taken out, and let me tell you, that's no joke. I had heard mixed things, ranging from "I was bed-ridden for four days" to "I was fine and pain free in two hours," so I didn't really know what to expect. The actual time at the dentist's office was miserable, and I'm not very good with needles, so the 16 or so shots (no exaggeration) of Novacane were no picnic. I think the quote of the day was, "You're gonna feel a lot of pressure, and then you'll hear a crack." Somehow that was supposed to comfort me, but I don't know how. Right, so I came home and quickly popped a Vicodin (the greatest medication ever), which helps, no doubt. But yeah, sleep was sketchy and hard to come by last night, and now I'm just sitting doing nothing. For the second day in a row. Hopefully I'll be able to function tomorrow.

In other news, on friday night, Jesse, Kim, and I made a pimped out shopping cart funded by the spare change from our cars. I must say, it came out quite good. Rather than explaining it, I'll just post some pics. Unfortunately however, I don't have the pics yet, but when I get them, I'll post them for sure...

I love when people are at my house and are jerks for what seems like no reason.

I apologize for not posting anything in a while. I feel like I don't really have anything worthwhile to say, and I'm not going to just post useless things on the internet for no reason. There's plenty of people to do that for me...

Definitions (and the clarity thereof) are of paramount importance to discussions, and to life. Sometimes semantics get played around with and learning is inhibited, and often times there is no benefit from it. Sometimes... no... a lot of times people are thrown into a tailspin of confusion and conflict all due to word choice and semantics, but in the end, isn't it the physical portrayal of said words that actually matter anyways? I mean, people can say what they want and call things what they want, but in the end, its what they actually end up doing that makes an impact, whether that be good or bad. I guess what I'm driving at here is this: Don't fight over words. If you're going to fight over something, let it be actual action.

On another note, I love being back home in South Florida, even if its only for the weekend. And I love conversation that provokes thought. And that doesn't turn into a useless argument where the sole purpose it to be right, but rather to learn and promote growth.

i apologize if i seemed bitter in that last post, i was..

but tonight was good. i suppose it was a short day, but it really started with church, which was dang good. i had forgotten what it felt like to be excited to go to church, largely because calvary had become (and very much still is) very stale and shallow to me. anyways, worship was so so so good, and the message was in-depth and actually interesting, which was and is a very pleasant change coming from calvary. i mean dont get me wrong, im not bashing calvary, i just dont see growth there. its like their main goal is to get people saved, as opposed to the actual growth of christians. just one more example of how its "all about the numbers" there...  im glad to have gotten away from that whole mess down, to be honest. i mean, i love the people down there, no doubt, but im quite happy to have a new church now.

i dont know why some people even call each other friends.

right, so im sitting here at my job (if you can call it that), and i realize why it pays only barely above minimum wage. i do nothing. i stay awake when the good lord knows i should be sleeping, and i dont really do anything. i mean, i told some ginormous football player to lower his music, but that was about it. i guess soon ill wander the floors making sure everything is good. sitting here makes me realize i should probably look into getting some sort of normal job, preferably one that interests me in some way...

anyways, we had another soccer game tonight, but we lost 1-0. i guess it was impressive considering we had no substitutes while the other had 6, not to mention they were the top ranked team in their division. oh well, it was fun while it lasted i guess...

so today was a day of polar opposites. it started out pretty lame by waking up to hours of studying for a macroeconomics test i was planning on taking later in the day. i went into the test feeling pretty confident, but yet to no avail. i failed that piece with a 60%, which is by no means good. on the bright side, i get 3 extra credit points added to it, but a 63% on a test is still failing, lest we forget. anyways, things went better after that mess, thanks to playoff soccer. we won 3-0 today (first round), which means we have another game tomorrow night at 8:20. i scored once, which is always nice. but yeah, so after that i went to homegroup with ryan and lauren, and there was a lot of good conversation about relationships, dating, marriage and whatnot. probably the best homegroup discussion thus far.

i miss south florida. 

somewhere along the lines, people you thought you were close with turn into jerks. not that i really have a problem with it, but i would have liked to know when that point was so i could have prepared for it. i mean, its sad i guess, but to be honest its not like i cant live without them. and its weird too, cause i dont even feel like i can say anything, even though i used to be able to...

so apparently people actually read my blog. its flattering. 

ok, so today was a pretty good day. i woke up around noon, which is always nice, and went apartment hunting. we found one place which was pretty dope, so i might be living there next year, especially since i royally screwed myself with the towers next year. anyway, so after that i had some dang good barbeque (which i had been craving like woah...) and was off to my soccer game. we lost 5-3, but i had all 3 goals for our team, so i count it as a victory for me. plus, they were the no. 1 team in our division, so yeah...

i havent posted in what seems like a while, but i dont really feel like throwing something up right now. ill have something tomorrow, i promise.

i never knew so many of my friends were giants fans. i guess its just cool to hate on the patriots. im sad they lost, yes, but im more saddened that people cant be true fans anymore...

so i just got back from a small group for a church i dont even go to, which i suppose sounds odd, but nevertheless im looking forward to it. it seems pretty chill... theres a bunch of kids from full sail, which is tight cause theyre all pretty artsy and whatnot. most of them are musicians too, which is cool. AND two of them are professional graphic designers, so that seems really good. its weird how ive been what seems like pretty far from God lately, and then as soon as i start to get back, He's like, "Here, remember that I'm this good to you, and can bless you in ways you never thought possible." never would i have guessed that some random homegroup would have the possibilities to open such doors in my life. im not saying anything will come of this, but it seems like it has definite possibilities. only downside: like half of them are from michigan, and that accent has gotta go...

Okay, last night was manchester orchestra down at the social, and let me tell you, it was pretty sick. in all fairness, the middle act (some guy named john somethingoranother) sucked, but the opening band, All Get Out (myspace.com/loudasallgetout) was dang good. also, ryan and i owned stephen and told him manchester was playing with page france and anathallo, so he just about killed himself. everyone who was with him said he was furious he didnt go, which was super funny to ryan and i. high fives to us. but yeah, so then we came back and chilled with fil for a while, which was nice since i wont see him for a while. actually, now that i think about it, it was for a dang while, and i just woke up at 7 a.m. to have breakfast with him. so yeah, im running on like 3 hours of sleep or something ridiculous like that. totally worth it though, i love that kid. but yeah, i got stuff to do, so bye...

Manchester Orchestra was amazing tonight. more on this later. im tired, its 3:15 am, and im going to bed.

so apparently it became cool somewhere down the line to curse like a sailor and smoke and drink. i guess i missed the "cool" bus or whatever, cause im pretty sure those are privileges reserved for douchebags, but whatever. i mean, i just dont understand. i know there were those who were basically destined for that because they faked their way through christian school and whatnot, but what about the couple who seemed genuine? was that all fake? what about the real moments ive had with them? is the pressure to be accepted by other douchebags that great? when does morality get respected? and if it is respected, then why does no one strive for it?

today was a weird day. everyone left for the mall, so i basically had the apartment to myself. it was odd, i felt like i was in some sort of limbo. i dont know, its hard to explain, but there was this odd feeling of serenity mixed with discontent. almost as if i could have felt either solely with a little effort in either direction. that doesnt make a lot of sense, but whatever. then went to dinner with ryan and lauren, which was good, as fazoli's always is, and chilled at her apartment. jeff and chelsea were there, which is still kinda weird to me, to be honest. i guess it shouldnt be, but it still seems wrong that those two are together. and its weird too, being with those couples brings up that desire that being single always has with it. i suppose i could fill it with useless psuedo-relationships as i see so many people do, which i guess works as a quick fix, but thats not really worth anything. i wonder whats going to become of all these relationships, and what will actually turn into an actual relationship. oh how i hope...

okay, so i just saw cloverfield for the third time in theaters, and im pretty sure it never gets old. its weird, but i get this joy out of my friends enjoying something that i recommend. i dont know, maybe its not weird, but whatever. also, im pretty sure basketball is a waste.

I'm not sure whats going to come of all this mess, but at least its here, right?