today was a weird day. everyone left for the mall, so i basically had the apartment to myself. it was odd, i felt like i was in some sort of limbo. i dont know, its hard to explain, but there was this odd feeling of serenity mixed with discontent. almost as if i could have felt either solely with a little effort in either direction. that doesnt make a lot of sense, but whatever. then went to dinner with ryan and lauren, which was good, as fazoli's always is, and chilled at her apartment. jeff and chelsea were there, which is still kinda weird to me, to be honest. i guess it shouldnt be, but it still seems wrong that those two are together. and its weird too, being with those couples brings up that desire that being single always has with it. i suppose i could fill it with useless psuedo-relationships as i see so many people do, which i guess works as a quick fix, but thats not really worth anything. i wonder whats going to become of all these relationships, and what will actually turn into an actual relationship. oh how i hope...



and now apparently theres 50 million people in my house. and its 3 o clock. just what i want.